College soon ahhhhh

I'm tired. Really, really, really tired. I can't wait for T to get here friday morning, and lukey on friday night. I'm NOT looking forward to work tues, wed, thurs, and sat night :( Someone save meeeeeeeee. Someone call me cause i'm bored (631) 885-1916!!!!

Gizzard= Dessert and fish faces

[I'll get your dinner, your gizzard, and so much more...] Katie i love you so much but you are so blonde.

okay so today we went to petes PLACE. We got free breakfast because peter stole the check and blamed it on kathy bo bathy. But then we realized he was paying it was so sweet. Then we went to 45th street and almost died. We went to the flea market and we were the only white people. Then when we were getting our nail done i screamed something about asians in front of the chinese people. I got fake nails woo. Dan thinks that they will last for a day. Then we went to walgreens and got yummy drinks and 3 muskateer bracelets they are so cute, mine is multicolored lyns is peach kts is white. Then we went to the mall to return lyns jacket and get a new one, karen and wesley laughed at us and couldnt beleive we went to the ghetto. "I SEE ROBERTTTT PSH PSH PSH" Then we went to jamba juice and got yummy smoothie from ugly dan ross, he put a green thing in my peach smoothie i was soooooo mad. Then lyn and i watched the OC and the andy milonakis show soooooo dumb. Then we watched the amanda show and we ate yummmmmmmy chicken tacos with lyns mommy. Then we went to publix and got iced cupcakes sooooooooo good.

Lyn is a whore. I love lyn. I love katie. I work FOREVER next week. I am enslaved in CP hell for 4 nights. 3 in a row! Suck my butt. Oh i see ham though. Goodbye.

Ham is cool sometimes

[Cause every little thing you said
And every little thing you did
You made me doubt all of this
Is that what you're waiting for?] 3DD

Okay i'm posting cause the gay kid is making me. Well mister joey is in canada and i was thinking how i want to go to canada cause it sounds cool, rob just got back from there and he liked it and the pictures are awesome, i want to goooooooooooo. Lyndsey it trying to get me to like HAM and i don't want ham, no no ewwie. Today i'm hanging out with lyn and and kt kt, i love themmmmmmmmmm. I can't wait for the fun. I'm going to go call lyn and get ready and yay. This weekends gonna be longgggggg, i can't waittttttt. Blah dee blah, i don't know what to do...i'm sorry that i get mad trac!

[I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with YOU...] tAAR

Oh Boy

All that I really have to say is WTF. Since yesterday I have been in a pissed off mood. I feel like i'm stuck in this point in my life where i'm growing up but staying young at the same time, and I have to choose what I want. I feel like there's only a few people that I can trust, and one of them is very far away and comes home next weekend and I can't wait (things will be better with her around). I cried on Saturday, and I cried last night but for two different reasons. Sometimes it feels good to cry, and sometimes it feels good when people cheer you up. Sometimes I feel like i'm going insane and crazy like I can't stop myself from being happy, and other times i feel like i need to stop being depressed. What causes this? I also don't have that much longer until i have to go up to g-ville, meet my roomates, meet my new life, and take it on full force. I'm scared, I'm sad, I'm happy, I'm unconfident, I'm every emotion possible, and I can't help it.

I want to be 16 and back in highschool, but I also want to be 20 and know what I want out of life. I can't have the first so I'll have to embrace the second.

Even though there are a handful of people I'm leaving here that I love to death, and a handful of people that are going away that i love even more. There's some part of me that wants to get away from some of these people. Some of them I can't stand, some are out to make my life hell, and some are just stupid and annoying. There's pros and cons to every situation :)

To Tracy- seriously, thank you for helping me, thanks for being there, thanks for telling me i'm dumb when I am, for telling me how amazing i am, for helping me be less sad. I've truly learned a lot from you, besides all of the joking and kidding around, we make a pretty good team ;) Love you

I think that's all for now. My mind is too full. I'll write some later.
<3>

Tomorrow

I'm crazy and psycho! I like being crazy and psycho, its amazing. Today dan got me flowers and we went to stonewood for dinner and then to pats and then to a movie :) wedding crashers was so fun. I haven't seen my tracy in 2 weeks and i will see her tomorrow when we go to disney quest i can't wait. She is my other half and knows how crazy i really am!!

[You do something to me, that I can't explain
So would I be out of line, if I said I miss you?] Incubus

I'm serious....i ain't messin around

Somebody stop me. I'm going crazy. It's quite an enjoyable time. I feel like im high on life. Sometimes i feel fat and not cool, but im assured of that daily. I don't know what i'm taking or what i'm on but it's splendid. Don't stop. Someone may need to restrain me like now.

Okay after i wrote that i got in a bad mood so i'm going to go cry. I do not like this. I'm going to bed.

Love you all.

I love you all

[Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops

Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind]

I'm posting because tracy tells me to! I have this weird chest pain thing, it hurts, it's not good, i don't like it. Besides that i'm just enjoying the rest of summer, dreading work (only 3 more weeks), and just relaxing and bike riding. I've seen so many movies lately. I'm going to disney quest on friday to surprise my tracy ;) gosh i miss her. I miss her soooooo much. I'm going to miss everyone when i leave, i'll be very sad. I'm going to have to start packing and stuff soon it's going to be cool. Two of my roomates seem cool, the 3rd i cant find, who is she?

On another note, i finished the half blood prince and accidently told heather and david something they shouldnt know about who the half blook prince is and they are mad. I'm sorry! You tricked me!

Okay, that is all for now. I will go to sleep so i can feel better at work tomorrow :)

Crazy, i'm really crazy

I'M READING HARRY POTTER RIGHT NOWWWWWWW, SWEET. FRICKIN AWESOME.

I am on of those losers who waits in line for the new Harry Potter books, although somehow my mom and i cheated and we left my house at 1215 and got back at 1 from getting the book, i don't know it's freaking awesome, i love life.

There are not many things that i love more than harry potter, only my daniel, my friends and my family. Other than that the Harry Potter series wins. I love Ron Weasley the most, he is so freaking cute. Okay, i will shutup now.

Just leave me alone

Really tired, Really drained, Really wanting to just curl up and never speak to anyone again. I love you all, but i'm really never appreciated, and i don't fucking care anymore.

Goodbye

I need to write a new journal

Back from Gainesville and UCF sadly. We saw Luke, Mike, Gabe, Lexi, and some others at UF and we saw Chels, Anthony, Tracy, and Ben at UCF. It was great fun. Details shall not be left, if you were there then you know how awesome it was. I have no other friends besides those really. The trip was amazing, i loved everything there, i cant wait to go to gainesville. Pictures are on my site.

I really miss Lukey. But i can't seem to stand being apart from Tracy. She is truly like my other half, and i love that we never fight. She makes me happy to be me. She is my bestest friend. I love her. I don't want her to go away, but must accept this fact, i will soon. But i know we will always be friends.

I love my boyfriend. He makes me happy all the time. I giggle whenever i'm around him cause he is so silly. We are going to college together. I can't wait. I can't wait for college. It will be greattttt fun. <3

Goodnight all, I am feeling sick and not wanting to write more. Bye

AP tests

I have passed 9 out of 11 AP exams in my high school career, that's crazy. The only two that i did not pass were USgovernment and UShistory. I just don't do well with those history classes. I passed Psychology, Microecon, Environmental, Biology, Chemistry, Lit, Language, Chemistry, and the infamous Physics. Oh hell yeah. I passed Physics, the hardest one of all. What now?

Defense is paper thin...

Today was okay. I spent the afternoon working with the "spelling bee champion". She's too cute (maybe one day she really will learn how to spell, and realize that knife really does start with a k, not an n). After work Tracy came over and we went to jamba juice, lyn met us, and so did mason and luke and we chilled at Greenberrys. We were taking pictures and the boy who worked there thought that it was lightning, silly silly boy. Tracy and I also made a new video, that I LOVE TO DEATH! (which may be sooner than you think). I can't wait until college, it's going to be soooo freaking awesome. I will miss KT and Lyn though, sigh my little juniors errrr seniors i mean. Dammit i'm a freshman AGAIN. Frickin A, why? Make it end. I'm a freshman and my brother's a junior....whoaaa now.

Tomorrow tracy will be over (since she couldn't spend the night) and dan will be over too, after work. Luke will stop by before he leaves, and lyn will maybe come over. I really have no friends.

After tomorrow, dan leaves wednesday for UF preview and comes back friday night. Then saturday afternoon we leave for UF and UCF to see friends that we miss, and maybe i'll meet the infamous joe and have a chat with him (as tracys mother and I discussed). I hope tracys kyle dissapears. I dont wish death on him, or anybody. But i really don't like him. He needs to go away and stop hurting her. He's a jackass. Stupid whore.

There's not much left of summer, make the best of it kiddos. Stay happy, be safe always.

RIP Shana Kay 7/3/05, so terrible.

So unwanted...

[I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific
And you might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been
And this is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should have said that
It's the very moment that I wish I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hate who I've been] Relient K

I can't wait to go to college. Don't get me wrong, Wellington/WPB is freakin' awesome, but there comes a point where you gotta go. Although this summer is amazing, with it's trips, excapades, and overall drama, i really really need to go. It will be good for me. I'll really miss my friends, but i know the ones that i'm leaving behind I will see again.
46 more days until i leave, hell yeah.

my beautiful friends yay

TRACY IS HERE NOW AND LUKE WILL BE HERE AT 630 OMG I LOVE THEMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!

this will be an awesome weekend, gah