Hotel Partyyyyy...

Well now. I am back from Orlando. Let's start with wednesday morning. Went to Thomas'. Sara and Heather picked me up around 12:30ish and our trip was underway. We drove to OrLaNdO. Not the Disney World/Universal Orlando. But the UCF/Downtown Orlando. We proceeded STRAIGHT to UCF and saw joshey(and roomates), kelly, brian bustos, and of course Michael Cairnes. We saw them for a fraction of a second, watched some poker, and then dashed off to the hotel, with chelsea in tow. We prettied ourselves up, called the boyfriends, and took some amazing sexy pics. We went to Incubus, got our shirts, and had a blast. I can't even recap brandon's hotness.

He was so sexy with no shirt and his ponytail. I AM allowed to do him. Just keep that in mind.

In the middle, between the bongos, pelvic thrusts, amazing music, and drum solo, there was a beautiful rendition of the milkshake song. Awesome.

After our concert we met delaney, bryan glynn, and this leah girl at our hotel room. We left to get pizza which we could not find and got hit on. But then came back when, guess what, Josh, Kelly, Michael, Pat, Brian, (scott and zach josheys roomates) show up adding to the other 7 in the room already. Making it 14. We controlled the madness and then kicked them out after getting pissed off, at our good friends. I never thought i would be taking a beer from MC and seeing him like that. Geez. "Brooke get the paper, its in my pants" Wow i love michael but not that much. It all ended well anyway and i love my friends. I love sara marie alemany for being so strong. She is my role model.

After finding the DD's and making everyone leave. Pat, Del, and Leah come back cause dels car got locked in the garage. They had to sleep over. But chelsea was gone. So heather and i shared a bed(where she lost her shirt and i was on top of her?), del and sara shared one, leah had a cot, and pat on the floor. It was the worst sleeping ever, almost. We woke up early, del missed his class at his college 2 hours away. and we tried to get the FREE continental breakfast that wasn't free. BULLSHIT. lol we just left after that cause it was annoying.

We showered, went to UCF and saw everyone again. Chilled with MC for awhile. So Coy. lmao. But then of course we had to depart and ended up back here. Bummer. Best time ever.

I'd give my life for just one kiss...

First off HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SARA MARIE!! i love you so much. im sorry that this hurricane is on your birthday, and the last one was on mine. Pray for incubus to be on still!

So people came over last night, lyndsey around 5 and then Tom around 630 and then heather and david after their movie. I know Heather really likes this one, and they seem great together. We had some fun watching sex and the city, but i was so tired that i made them leave, i feel kinda bad but i know they went to her house for some fun of their own.

I'm not sure what i am feeling at the moment, pertaining to thomas. But i know it's good. A little while ago we talked about how we aren't comfortable in front of each other sometimes, or at least i wasn't. But that has all changed now. Don't know why. It's just how it is. It's what love does to you. I can't get enough of laying in his arms, or going to his house, or just hanging out with him. He completes me and we are awesome together. It's when we are apart that makes things difficult. And i probably won't get to see him for a long while with this hurricane.

Last night, it took every ounce of my strength not to run away to tom's house, now that i have my license. He has a generator, i wish i was 18 and could do whatever i wanted. I know for one thing that i would be at Tom's house right now. I can't stop thinking about him.

Is this normal? Cause i know i've never felt this before.

I can't think about him anymore, all i know is that he better come get me after the storm or something cause i may die of deprivation. I love him too much.

P.s. i will miss all of my friends during this stupid storm AGAIN! someone come get me after this is over cause i love you guys.

BROOKE

I'm screwed up...

i made a call to my dog tryin to split the blunt and break it up...drugs dont affect my work i still get my grind on...okay yeah i love luda...and lyndsey, yes. how can i say it plain, that im off that mary jane, and if its true what they say i dont know how many cells is left in my f-in brain. shhh okay im done. that was lyndsey before ;) today was okay. lit was gay. mr meyers is funny. physics sucks, but what else is new. i am not allowed out tonight but i got to drive earlier. And some people are coming over tonight, lyndsey(is here already), tom, hdiddy, david-o, and maybe some others dunno dont care. pat is playing poker tonight and luke is home, no at johns party. ewwwwwww.

"cause rules were made to be broken
but you can't make broken rules"-luda

"cause these women want a man to stay up and stay strong
like the NBA you gotta play hard or go home"- luda

yes. i love it. woohoo. okay bye :)

lyndsey's binder bit her

lyndsey's binder bit her yesterday this is lyndsey by the way and we are not going with brooke's little boyfriends theory that its a love bite because i was definatly bitten by an inanimate object and tom is just stupid so we dont listen to him much (just kidding thomas) im at brooke's house and we are listening to some rap cd....and i want pizza cuz i had japanese for lunch and not pizza for lunch lyk i usually do i went to saitos last night and it was awesome brooke was right maybe i should listen to her more often nahhh...i dont think so just kiddin i love brooke anyway i havent seen my tail truck that brooke describe earlier its an awesome truck and they have all tails....yea thats enough of rambling in brooke's journal laterz!

Roses are pretty

HAPPY 6 MONTHS THOMAS! i love you

today was awesome. school was short. wendys. toms house <3...haha yeauh...no comment. :) tom is a bad liar saying the roses were for him? okay weird. but no i got more roses. i love them. then work. was okay. pat...was drunk. katie...was funny. callahan...is selling the puppy :( i got tom something which i frickin know he wants pat made me get it. i was going to anyway. i think. but yeah i may keep it. nah ill give it to him maybe. i just love him so much oh boy. crazyness. love you all.

JEANNE GO AWAY you are ruining INCUBI

He wasn't what i wanted, what i thought no...

that song is stuck in my head cause of the weirdo i call lyndsey. "Go out with L-U-K-E(in sign language)..." her.."L-U-C-K NO!!!!!!!" uhhh okay. lol "he calls me little fajita" "well call him cupcake" um no but thats okay. my favorite "HE'S UGLY!...i didnt say that" and this made me laugh hysterically:

"she is so ugly, you are prettier than her"
"it doesnt take much"
"i know im kidding you are way prettier. she is so ugly"
"penis's aren't even that ugly"
"haha they aren't even that bad, how did we get on this topic again?"

and the weird kid from GNC: "omg you know when their whole eye is white"
"no but im pretty sure that youd be blind"
"no you just have no color"
"pupil?"
"yeah that i think thats so awesome"
"im pretty sure youd be blind"
"NO YOU ARENT its just a movie. geez"

i dunno but i love my cocksucker. haha what is with these nicknames? i love thomas also he is awesome. lyndsey "i think you should go out with tom", me "really? i think you should go out with luke" that is the note that i will end on. cause i have some homework still

Drama this...drama that

Well now...heather and david are quite the cute couple. They are like attached at the hip or genital region or something. I mean, man they are always together. When i see them it makes me miss thomas. Sometimes maybe i take the relationship for granted. But today i was deathly scared of losing him. It made me realize more that he means the world to me. and i can't lose him...

lol before i was thinking how i call lyndsey...lyn and her last name(baldyga) make it Lyn.B and i am of course B.Lyn, how awesome is that. sorry.

tomorrow is work. with lyndsey. haha. the LMB is a crazy one. stupid. but crazy. oh how i love her and her talks and her obsessions. you should really get that checked out. like...psychologically, thank god you take that class. you should talk to Mr.meyers. lol

okay now i am in a good mood as i wasnt before

And it's a shame that we
Gotta spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again....some tim mcfgraw/nelly songthat heather sent me

I'm in that place...

Where i need to know that someone loves me. Better yet, I need to feel that someone loves me. I need to laugh and i need to cry sometimes. I always feel better after crying, like that i-dont-care-im-better-than-you-so-stop-making-me-cry feeling. I'm in that...after awhile i need a kiss to keep me going stage. anywho...

ive been biting my lip...it hurts...am i nervous? maybe it's because its...

...almost 6 months. wow. who'd have thought, lol not me. After almost a year of not having a boyfriend i wasn't looking for anything like this. But it's awesome. I love thomas. Just one month and he beats rick. although in so many ways he already has. Advice from michelle made me think : "don't fall in love brooke. it hurts so much" too late mich. way too late. i'm in love and i've finally realized it. i've decided that if i get hurt from this i dont care. Its been worth it already and i learned so many things about myself. I'm in love, what can i say?

Bow chica bow wow

so yeah...woke up early. had nothing to do since my boyfriend slept and wouldn't see me. psht. then i had work at 2 with lyn and katie miss katie. aww i love them. that was fun. then i went to SAITOS for dinner which made me so happy lol, it made the bad day good. i love that food more than anything ever. then i went to barnes and noble and talked to callahan, maybe he wont think i hate him anymore. then i went home and changed and then luke came and we met heather and david downtown and had to buy the wrong ticket for our movie and get in and somehow we did it but the movie was already half over almost. then we went back to lukes and hung out with katie and watched some MadTv and then luke and i left heather and davido there doing who knows what, i wonder if she was late. i was gonna interrupt but decided against it. good choice. well now im going to sleep and then hopefully tom will wake up tomorrow to see me...

"Love is a bond without reason..."-juliana theory

Happy Belated Birthday To...

ME!!! haha. well yes thanks to my friends good deceiving tricks i had no clue about this party. heather is the master. i was ready for a quiet relaxing girls night away from boys and drama and just girls fun. but no...i got scared to death by davido as i walked in the room and then sara yelling surprise. wow how i love you guys. It was massive fun, besides the few people missing, like lyndsey and becca and elliot, and most importantly thomas. seeing heather/david, josh/kelly, chel/mark sara/rafael made me miss him even more when i was supposed to be having fun. though it was a great night, thanks to all. lol and thanks for the presents! by the end of the night i was dead tired and fell asleep on the couch with luke, while heather and david were...yeah. Heather was supposed to drive me home before 12 but yeah...that didnt happen, and ::surprise:: luko my man came to the rescue. i really love him. and i love everyone who took time to come tonight hope you had fun :) now i am so out of it and am still not feeling well as i was not before this surprise evening. so i am going to sleep lol. i love my friends. i love thomas. end

yeah...you

i suck. i can't take anymore of my sucking. brooke, stop sucking. you're better than that.

Today was long...

Heather woke me up at around 9:01...wow that extra minute helped me a lot lol. So i woke lyndsey up when i called her for the beach but she went back to sleep cause she didn't know what i was saying. H and I went to get gas, dunkin donuts, and then sophies, and lukes. We then went to the beach and DP and LL met us there. It was grand. We got ice cream, well mine was strawberry smoothie kinda the reddish color of my face. It hurts. Okay, back on track. We then went to lukos where we had some fun. lol we went swimming in the green pool, luke tried to get me onto the roof of the office to jump into the pool but uhh yeah my shortness prohibited me from getting from the ground to the tree, tree to the roof. Ouch. Frosty ate a coconut AGAIN and was weird. Lukes pants fell off, and heather and david disappeared. Hmm. Luke made me smell one of his strawberry things, it was pleasant, kinda like my smoothie from earlier in the day lol. But yeah while i was at the Lewis residence, miss katie lewis called me to come to work. what freaks i work with. but oh how i love them. yes that was my day

hmm tom. it's hard not to love him. but so difficult at times. why are we not close enough? what will it take to make it that way? but like heather says, "she has to see if the 'cant get enough of them' stage lasts with her and david" that's how it is. I can't get enough of his weirdness, stupidity, and irresistable ways. I can't explain it. We are close at times, and things are great, but theres always another secret that he can't tell me. What will it take? When will we be comfortable around each other? What the fuck is wrong with me?

"That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love..."-sugarcult

GO FASTERRRRRRRRRRRR!

Lyndsey...my favorite dongnat...oh how i love you. I will recount this evening as best as possible:

school...work...lyndsey came. We goofed off, told stories, and ended up spilling things, breaking the ice machine, and creating the *NEW* FROZEN HOT CHOCOLATE (you all thought i was crazy but no it's good and i will be a millionaire) haha. Basically we talked like we normally do, i learned she cant use a fax machine, she got hit on by the red-head boy (but denies it and says it was me), she cant remember simple elemental things, and we drew on her folder. Mainly these two words, which are now OURS BITCH:
1) Dingnat- basically meaning small penis and is my new name? yes i am a dingnat, because i am short and wide...thanks lyn
2) Dongnat- basically meaning large penis and that is...::surprise:: lyndsey cause she is tall :/

Now...these two words are interesting, hahaha. Dingnats are yummy in my tummy. (says lyndsey) And there is a song, something like: "DINGNAT, DINGNAT, BROOKE IS A DINGNAT!"

there was something else like...."no i heard it's pretty big" "i could have told you that like a year ago...have you seen his hands and feet.""yeah they are pretty big but that doesnt mean anything" oh and then..."well we can stand them next to each other and say DROP YOUR PANTS...and compare" lol lyndsey you are a weirdo

After, driving home...there is a clam tail truck. Which says TAILS 99cents...here is the convo:
me: "TAILS 99cents"
her: "I WANT A TAILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. I WANT A TAILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL."
me: "Clam and shrimp tails, CLAM tails."
her: "Who wants clam tails?"
me: "To eat...okay?"

the stupidity continues..."have you seen his hands? they are so small! he has a smaller penis then YOU do."

okay that is all folks...why do we think of these things? i don't know lol. I think it's what's on our minds. Love you all <3

It's how I memorize...

We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty, do ordain and establish, this constitution for the United States of America.

Okay i had to write that out so that i could make sure i had it memorized. I hope we dont have to do a crap load of work when we go back tomorrow.

LegislativeExecutiveJudicialRelationsamongstates/nationalgov't
MethodsofamendingNat'lsupremacyRatification

"We have to escape and I will go anywhere if you just lead the way..."-hoobastank

oh how we rock...

Let me start off by saying...what the fuck. This is absurd and crazy and mind boggling. Hate Crew dominates the world. It is proven. We all have boythings. Me and my weird Thomas, Heather and her newly found Davido, Sara and the mysterious Raffel, and Chelsea oh chelsea and markgarrettashton-ness. We officially rule the world.

Nextly, Tomo and I are great. We are getting real close and he is one of my best friends. Yet, we are both learning as we go basically. It's a totally different relationship then we are both used to. But it's the best thing ever

If only, I had one wish...

ahhh The Ataris, what an amazing band:

"If only, I had one wish
I'd want a Million, Trillion lifetimes
That I could spend with you
Fall in love with you, again and again"

Love: An expression of one's affection...this was the best definition that i could find. The one that made the most sense to me. I truly think that i am going crazy. So long ago, when i was going out with Rick, i thought i had it all. HE loved me, or at least he said he did. It didn't mean anything to me then. It was just something to say. It didn't make me feel they way that i do now. I don't really know how to explain it. Tom isn't just a boy that I can live with, he's someone i can't live without. During the hurricane, when i was scared to death, I couldn't stop thinking about if he was okay or what he was doing or how i couldn't get in touch with him. He has this way of getting to me, Making everything okay, being there for me when i'm sad, making me laugh with his stupid faces and voices, and there's a place in my heart that only he can fill. I used to envy people for what they had, a couple of years ago i wanted a boyfriend so bad, but this time i think i did it right. I waited for the one that i wanted, and i won't screw it up. I love thomas, and i don't care who knows it.

"sometimes love is a d d i c t i o n , sometimes it hurts like hell, sometimes you just can't get enough..."
BROOKE

CINGULAR I HATE YOU

David is mean. Heather is taking her shirt off for a back massage and cuddling with David. EW! But anyway I am talking to alex or ben or fhqwigod. Seriously, who is he?

I hate cingular!!!! They made me pay 53$ for a stupid chip that THEY broke. I hate them.

"Zipadee-doo-dah"-David

"Let's get together and populate the Zion"-Heather

"I hope your head implodes"- Chelsea

"....."- Luke

Hurricane my ass

That blowed big time I hope that hurricanes die cause i can't stand them. And I hope you implode and fall off of a cliff ;) I mean, I love you chelsea lee...i hope you house's booboo gets better.

Where is my boyfriend? I can't find him. He doesn't answer his phone! If you are my boyfriend and you love me then come over my house cause i miss you.

Hope everyone's safe and i love you all.

:)

I LOVE THOMAS!

Yay for Thomas

My Thomas is awesome...he came over today with pink roses and a bracelet for meeeeeeeeeeee. Best birthday presents everrrrrrrrrrrrr. I Love him.

Happy Birthday to me

YAY it's my birthday...woo

fuck...what happened to having a great birthday? why aren't you making me happy...all i want to do is cry

I WIN....BOOYAH BIOTCH!