No woman, no cry

my teeth hurt...a lot, i hate going to the dentist....but he said i have "pretty teeth" :)

I got to drive this morning a lot in la voiture de ma mere (my mom's car) and it was funnnn. My brother says i'm a better driver than her, yay. I drove mommy to work and played with the little kiddies for a little they are sooooooo cute. Then i drove me and Jarett to the dentist where the fun ensued. When we got out it was pouring so my brother and i got soaked and i had to drive home like that. Now i'm laying around and reading and leaving in an hour to get my mom and sister and then to go to lunch at mario the bakers, i love thattttt placeeeeeeeee. Tonight i may see war of the worlds with danny or just hang out with him i don't know.

This summer should never end. Ever. The only thing that would be better would be if my love tracy were here, and luko too, although ill see luko on friday night :) :) :) :) WOOOOOOOOOO.

[Can't you see that it's just rainin'
Ain't no need to go outside] JJ

the duckies are so cute

I'm tired. I'm stupid. I'm pathetic. I'm irrational. I'm me. And maybe i guess that's good enough, maybe.

[While I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather
What's the purpose
It feels so worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it And I'm just scared, so scared that i'll fail you

And sometimes I think that I'm not good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why i'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't do this
You promise me that i'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once] Relient K

Please....please, no more of this

[So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them...

...You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale, I hear your voice
And I Answer you, though I hardly make a noise] Relient K

[I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been] Relient K

I LOVE THEM

[All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When i got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said "I miss you, come home"
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart i so believed
The love you felt for me was mine
The love I'd wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told you so's
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you] Relient K

Sigh

Tracy left today, Luke leaves tomorrow. I don't know anymore. It just gets me really depressed. All of this. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Cheer up.
<3 me

Trip

Monday/Tuesday:
It all started on monday when i left and drove up to g-ville. We got there at like 9 ate dinner had ice cream and then went to sleep. Orientation was the next morning and it was gay, but i met kyle and emily in my group which is awesome. I hung out with those two and then we had dinner and skits and went to the dorms where i hung out with kyle and helped him pick classes. I went with emily to the party in the basement, went upstairs and fell asleep.

Wednesday:
Woke up early (730) went to the bookstore and got gator clothes and stuff, and then i went to my advising appt and got my classes. I'M A PHYSICS MAJOR. Then we started driving up to NY. That lasted until late thursday.

Thursday:
Arrived at the Satnicks and had dinner with them. Nicole came to pick me up with rob in the car....surprise. We went to josefs with ujas, andreas, rob, and mike. We all went to applebees (oh god) and it was my birthdayyyyyyy, yay thanks mike. We all went back to joes after and hung out. It was great.

Friday:
Went to northport with lisa, ava, and holly(avas mommy). We went to panera bread after shopping and then went back to avas and watched the senior show, lmao. So funny, esp. the antelope. Then i was chilling and mich came to get me and we went to danas party which was great cause i missed them both. Dan wynn stripped for 10$ and jumped in the pool. Great. LOL.

Saturday:
Went with my parents to get a car and then went to friendlys for ice cream later on. Got dropped off at nicoles and then we went to roberts and that was funnnnnnny. We had a great time there. lol robs anorexic. Ava also did stupid stuff with my screename, lol. Let's just say i had a prom date to the school that i don't attend anymore.

Sunday:
Went with ava to the mall and shopped for awhile. That was funny, shes hilarious. After that we went and got daniel(avas brother) and went to laurens to drop off a baby present for her older sister. Then we went to avas grandparents cause it was fathers day. After that i went to the perrones with my parents to see vincenzo and maria cause they are home from NYC and Boston. After that Andreas called me and wanted to go to the movies to see batman. I convinced Ava to go too so andreas, ava, mike, nicole, and i went to see it. We took many pictures after then went to some party at a park. That was soooo funny. Apparently david rothman wanted to see me, which was awkward and funny cause hes cool. Then after all that nonsense we went to the diner. Andreas raced mike and all that good stuff. The diner was fun too.

Monday:
Hung out with my parents, went shopping, flew home.

I don't know, there were so many more things that happened but at least i documented these so i can remember them. Today is my one month anniversary with daniel <3 and tracys going away thing, im going to miss her sooo sooo much omg.
<3 ookey

Home Sweet Home

im back guys, did ya miss me? okay well even if you didn't i don't care. That was a much needed trip. I love all of my ny friends and i miss them now. I'm goingto write a more detailed journal on our adventures tomorrow, i had a great time.

Sleepy time. TRACY DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!

I miss you guys. I miss Daniel and I miss Tracy. I miss heather and david who are prolly still on their cruise. I miss my sara. I miss Lukey a lot too cause i haven't seen him and he's leaving me on Wednesday. There's someone else i miss a lot. I don't know really anymore why, it just is. Hopefully i see them when i get back.

I love you alllllllllllllllllllllllll. <3

p.s. i'm coming home tomorrow night :)

Right now im sitting in commack. This isn't my home anymore. I want to go home. Home is Wellington, home is with tracy heather and sara, home is in dans arms. This is not home. However satisfying this may be for the moment, and don't get me wrong, i love my new york friends to death, i just still don't fit in here. I'm not one of them anymore. I don't want to be. I want to be home, where i actually feel like people care about me.

Once again, i'm sitting here, online, on my vacation, while my friends are out with each other. I think i'm going to go to sleep or something. My head really hurts. This was such a bad idea. There's so many other people i need to see back home. People that are leaving me soon, people that i don't want to leave...

Love always, Brooke

i have jamba juiceeeeeeeee, i went with tracy :) i got peach jamba juice!

Ilovepeaches (andtracy)

i'm leaving in 2 minutes, good bye

Goodbye for now

[i'm leaving around 4 today. i'll be gone for a little over a week. I'll be in Gainesville tonight. I'll be in NY on thursday. Part of me doesn't want to go. There's things i need to do and people i need to see. I'll miss danny, but this gives him time with his friends. Call me while i'm gone 631-885-1916.]

[Miss you already trace]

[i missed you in general
i do all the time now, cute huh]

For the second time, make it stop

i really can't sleep when you're not around...

tracy and i had such fun today bike riding and we have hilarious videos so i/m me if you want to see them :)

miss you nic, and everyone else. I'll be there soon.

I love life

One week from today.
Only one more week.
After a year, i only have to wait one more week to see them.
I'm f-in ecstatic.

I will miss you though.

Big fucking sigh, that's what i have to say tracy. I so should not have gone tonight.

[The last star left in heaven
Is falling down to earth and
Do you still feel the same way?] Blink 182

You keep me not-so-insane

oh dear

I told her everything. I'm not so scared anymore. I'm strong for someone normally so weak.

OMG I'M HAVING SAITOS FOR DINNER! AH that just made up for this horrible day.

Me

Your #1 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #3 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #5 Match: ESTJ

The Guardian You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker. Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them. You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities. Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

What's Your Personality Type?

Grr

[I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be] JJ

[we told each other, there is no other way] JJ

First day i didn't see him

[edit] i did get to talk to him at least

Don't let things go unnoticed...

[Nobody knows this little Rose --
It might a pilgrim be
Did I not take it from the ways
And lift it up to thee.
Only a Bee will miss it --
Only a Butterfly,
Hastening from far journey --
On its breast to lie --
Only a Bird will wonder --
Only a Breeze will sigh --
Ah Little Rose -- how easy
For such as thee to die!] Emily Dickinson